It is almost the end of November of 2014, another year has gone by although it seems like it was just New Year’s Eve yesterday. The snow is here to stay now, we had about 3 inches the other day until it poured and wiped out every last flake of the gloriously beautiful snow and we were back to the ugly brown grass that usually symbolizes the upcoming spring.
Over the Thanksgiving holiday the North East Kingdom was dumped on and when looking out the window you see a covering of about a foot of the powdery whiteness. The snow is still falling and it causes a feeling of restlessness in some but for me it makes me feel cozy and content, like I am in a safe place wrapped in the warmth of an electric blanket. The snow acts like insulation; keeping in the warmth that seeps out from under the trailer and becomes an invisible barrier that blocks out the noise of the traffic passing by on route 14 less than 100 feet from my home, adding to the comforting feeling of safety and isolation that most others dread but that I look forward to this time of year.
The trees are covered with the silkiness of the snow and although it is a wet heavy snow it isn’t yet weighing them down. They still stand tall, strong and proud, their branches still outstretched like they are reaching out to support others around them. They are yet to be defeated! I feel like the trees today, but I know that come mid-February I will feel like the trees will look at that time in the season; bent from the weight of the snow, the weight of the world on my shoulders, frozen in time and sparking from the sun that doesn’t warm the earth.
But for today and the next few days I want to enjoy the feeling of strength and happiness. I want to allow myself to believe that I can feel this way in a couple months. I do not want to allow life to take me down anymore, no matter what may happen to me, my family or my friends over the winter season I want to come out on top. No,. I AM going to come out on top! I am going to stand tall, strong and proud always; like the trees surrounding my home.