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Getting Unstuck

There are so many different obstacles in life that set us back in our journey if we allow them too. Some people are doing well in life, have a home, family, a job and are at least making it through the day, some people are barely waking up in the mornings.

When we are in a position where the negative things are controlling our lives we need to re-evaluate where we are as opposed to where we want to be. We need to decide if we are going to let these things take precedence in life.

I lived a life that most people have no clue about unless I tell them, to look at me you would never know what I have been through.

When I was a little girl, about 2 1/2 years old I remember being beaten with the belt for peeing my undies as I was trying to make it to the potty. I had one of those old fashioned potty chairs, wooden with a painted little girl on the back and a plastic pot in it that slid out from underneath to empty it. This is the first bad thing I remember and there were so many that followed.

When I was 12 I was put into the care of DCF (Department Of Children & Families) because I went to school and a friend thought I had my first hickey from a boy only to see that when she pulled down my collar of my turtle neck I had a purple hand print around my throat. My friend and I went into the bathroom and I proceeded to show her my entire body, the black and blues went from the back of my shoulder blades and all the way down to my calves, the shape of a metal handle from a fly swatter. I begged her not to tell anyone because it was my fault I had been beaten so bad, I should not have told the truth about what was happening to me and no one would have hurt me more. At least that is what the 12 year old me told myself anyway.

Being placed in the states care lead from me being placed in one home to a total of 30 different foster homes, boarding school, 10 trips to a run away crisis center, rehab and living on the streets. No one loved me, no one wanted me,..why would they? I was damaged.

Life never got better as I aged either, I went from one bad place to another. It’s like I attract pain,..or so I thought.

About 50 days ago I was introduced to a system from a lady named Brenda. She introduced me to Unlimited Profits. Her purpose was to show me a way to make money. She has no idea what the system has done for me, it is so much more than a way for me to make money.

Through the mentoring in the system I have learned many things about myself. One thing I learned is that it does not matter what company I am with I will never see the results that I want and deserve until I get past the negative and painful past I have lived. This doesn’t mean that I had to completely forget it because it has shaped me to be the person I am, it just meant I needed to find a way to come to peace with it all.

At first I figured that would never happen, there is no one that can take away the pain…I was wrong though. I have been through 33 days of the mentoring and every day I grow a little more. I have learned that I am not my past. I am not what happened to me and if I allow if to consume me I will never be more than the negativity.

Because of what I have learned about myself, because I know that I can now be what I want to be, even though it wont happen overnight; I am now in a better position to help other people.

The mentoring program is amazing and I feel a kinship with the man who designed the system. He was in foster care, he struggled too. Life is never easy but it is what you do with what you are handed that makes the difference.

I am so thankful for the “Getting Unstuck” series that Robert Hollis Sr put together and added to this system. Yes, I can make money, great money with it, but before I focus on that aspect I just want to focus on showing people that there is a way for them to grow, move past the bad and into a wonderful place.

If you need some help, you do not need to tell me why, just grab this link and start improving yourself. Start to put you first, work on your spiritual self, your emotional self, mental self and the money will come.

I would love to connect with you, and if you would rather just check out the mentoring before connecting with me you can do that too. The links to connect with me or get the mentoring are below.

Find me on Facebook https://www.facebook.com/margoj3

Grab the FREE mentoring http://xs.gy/hannahhollis

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Please Help Us Pay Damion’s Medical Bill’s

I don’t usually do this, but desperate times call for desperate measures and I was hoping you could either help; even $1.00 helps or at least share this on your social media sites and blogs please?

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We (my family) has no extra money (just the donated money so far) and 9 days to figure out how to come up with the money for a place to stay to pay for our food. It is myself, my boyfriend and my daughter needing a place to stay while our son has his surgery.

Damion’s insurance will cover some of the operation but not all and not his medication or hospital stay.

They will not allow us to stay with him as siblings are not allowed to stay there. His sister has severe AD/HD & Autism and this affects her severely and is going to make is very difficult on her.

Please help us pay for his operation, his medicine, our food & a place to sleep if you can?

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My son is and has been violently sick since July 2014, and the doctors couldn’t figure out what was wrong with him until Thursday 1/15/15, he has hydroureteronephrosis.

His procedure is Jan. 27, 2015, a Laparoscopic Robotic Pyeloplasty. During the procedure they will find out what is wrong exactly meaning they are not exactly 100% sure what it is but will fix it while they are in there.

He has either Ureteropelvic Junction Obstruction (UPJ obstruction) or a Congenital (Hereditary) abnormality that produces a narrow ureter & causes a nearby blood vessel to strangle the ureter.

He will stay for at least 3 days and during that time we can’t drive 1.5 hours one way back and forth to home (besides he is scared and doesn’t want to be alone) we needs money for food, shelter and medical costs.

The link for people to share this or donate to help us is at Please Help Us Pay Damion’s Medical Bill’s

I am afraid that because of his congenital heart disease he will not make it through the surgery, this  fear could be unfounded but I am his mom and it is normal to worry. The doctor did say there are several things that go wrong besides the heart issue, he could get infections, the kidney could fail and a few other less serious things.

We have raised $100 ($95 after Paypal fees) and its going to cost well over $20000 but I didn’t want to be greedy nor did I dare to ask for that much money from people I don’t know. I have spoke to friends and family and they will see what if anything they can afford to do.

Plumfund sends the money to Paypal and I am having any money raised outside the fund also sent to my Paypal, if you would rather send the money directly to Paypal and not through the website my Paypal email is napfuture4u@yahoo.com

If your not comfortable sending money online at all you are welcome to send it directly to us @ only cash or money
orders made out to me because he has no ID yet and cant cash it otherwise,..
For Get Well cards mail too’;
Damion Johnson
C/O Margo Johnson
42 Carey Road
Hardwick, Vermont
05843

For donations mail too: (Please Mail ALL donations in the form of cash or Money Order only filled out to me, as I said he has no Identification at this point)
Margo Johnson
42 Carey Road
Hardwick, Vermont
05843
Feel free to call me also 802-473-2521
Or send directly to Paypal (Which is where the payments are sent to anyway) at napfuture4u@yahoo.com <<<Paypal email

I do not know how to thank people for helping my son get through this but know please that I will always have a special
place in my heart for you; as will Damion and the rest of my family.

With Love,
Margo, Damion, James & Arianna

~God Bless You All~

Can’t wait until our son is back to his normal, happy self. He is so upset about being laid up for several weeks, I need
to find something for him to do to occupy him.

) at napfuture4u@yahoo.com

I do not know how to thank people for helping my son get through this but know please that I will always have a special
place in my heart for you; as will Damion and the rest of my family.

With Love,
Margo, Damion, James & Arianna

~God Bless You All~

Can’t wait until our son is back to his normal, happy self. He is so upset about being laid up for several weeks, I need to find something for him to do to occupy him.

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This is Damion before he got sick, I can not wait for him to be like this again. 🙂

~I Work Hard,..is it not hard enough though?~

I reblogged this because I actually realized that things are not so different now,..well except that there is snow on the ground so we are not putting trees in. LOL. I also do more online in the way of making money. I work with Instant Rewards for one,..but basically it was important for me to re-read this and think about that day. Letting myself see where I was then and where I am now, even though there hasn’t been a huge change there still have been changes. Positive changes 🙂 There are more changes everyday, the biggest change is within myself and how I look at life.
Please enjoy my blog and comment about anything:) Thank you!

Stay at Home Mom Tells All

Today the sun is shining and we are headed to bolducs (a junk yard) to bring back some ferrious metals.

It is one of the ways we make money to feed the children and pay our bills.

On an ad I posted to craigslist a few days ago (see blog post below) I got a response from someone telling me that I wasn’t looking for work hard enough or doing what needs to be done to pay our bills.

The person who made that comment has no idea about how hard I work and what I do to provide for my family.

We go to random houses And Knock on doors trying to sell trees, letting people know we put in privacy hedges and mow lawns, we clean up scrap metal, and tear down buildings.

Our tree hedges we sell for less than most of our competition! We hand dig…

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~Raising Money For A Great Cause~

Working without a computer and trying to blog from a smart phone is quite a bit more difficult than I thought it would be. Due to the lack of a computer at this time this post will be very short.

I am trying to raise money for my family, to repair my car, my door and replace my windshield. I am also hoping to raise enough money to replace the money I was supposed to make from a freelance writing job I was supposed to start the day after the Break In and Bombing at my home….I have lost so much. I believe that what goes around comes around and that those who give to my family out of the kindness of their hearts will get that back tenfold.

For those who donate to my campaign there are two prizes being offered. One prize is $60 and the other is $20..if I remember correctly. These prizes come out of the money I raise and go to the two people/families/corporations that donate the two largest amounts.

My family appreciates everything everyone has helped us with at this point. I have gained new friends and learned so much. Thank you everyone.

The link below is to help my family, help can be in the form of sharing my link for me on your social media sites and blogs and also in the form of monetary donations. Again Thank You All!!

Holding Onto Hope (showing link if you could please kindly copy and paste in your sites 🙂

https://fundanything.com/en/campaigns/holding-onto-hope?col=-26713

Break In And Bombing! What Is This World Coming Too!

view of Hardwick, Vermont

view of Hardwick, Vermont (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Friday night, September 20th 2013, started out completely normal. My children, Damion and Arianna decided they wanted to go to Damion’s grandmothers in Hyde Park Vermont, so at about 7 pm we dropped them off there and my fiancee, James Patten, and I went to Hoagies for dinner. After dinner we went home and waited around for James brother to come and pick us up so we could go for a ride. We left our home at exactly 9:55 PM.

We arrived home at about 12:09 AM. Upon arriving at our house James went to the car to grab out food we had left over from dinner and at this time he noticed there was some kind of white powder residue all over the car and it smelled like it had caught on fire. While he was doing this I noticed the windshield was smashed. I went into the house (front door had been damaged also) to see what, if anything had been done to our home. When I walked in I noticed that there was garbage all over the entire house, the metal garbage bucket had been picked up and thrown across the room, my bedroom was tore apart, important papers everywhere,my desk ripped apart, ash tray thrown across the room, my printer hanging precariously off the desk and my computer screen was smashed. Our one year old pitbull, Mack, had been acting quite strange, he was lethargic and didn’t even lift his head or move AT ALL. I am positive he was poisoned or beat, but because he got extremely ill over the next 24 hours I am leaning towards a positioning.

Once we assessed everything and went through the entire house I placed a call to H.P..D, (Hardwick Police Department). Dan Locke was the offer who responded to the scene.

He went into the house with us and took a few (very few) pictures of the mess, asked questions that seemed relevant to the situation and them we lead him outside. We had assumed that the powder film all over the car was from a smoke bomb or something silly like that. I asked the officer what he thought was used to smash my windshield and he said he wasn’t sure possibly a rock or something. After further inspection of the windshield it was obvious that it broke from the inside, not the outside. He opened the car door and sitting on the drivers seat was a square piece of glass (said made in Canada) and shards and chunks of glass everywhere through out the car, on the drivers side floor was a round metal piece wrapped in black electrical tape, someone had placed a bomb in my car,…and NOT a chemical one, but a black gun powder bomb. They had placed the bomb on my dash which resulted in breaking my windshield and  catching papers on fire. Thankfully the windows were all the way up (electric windows) or the bomb would have been feed and flames would have ensued, resulting in totaling burning up my car and possibly causing my mobile home to catch ablaze also.

The officer removed the square piece of glass, the metal piece with tape on it and a cigarette pack, informed us that he was going to call ATF and report this so they would come to the scene and gather evidence. We were told to go ahead and clean our home and get a good nights sleep.

All weekend no one contacted us, no local police, no ATF, no state police,….no one. It was as if nothing ever happened.

Yesterday, Monday September 23rd 2013, I started making phone calls myself. The first calls I placed were to ATF and the State Police. While waiting for them to call me back I called the Red Cross to see about getting some help (I didn’t have insurance, stupid,..I know, but the truth), the Red Cross could NOT help us at all because we had stayed in the residence, (per police officers direction) then I placed calls to NEKCA (North East Kingdom Community Action) which resulted in a reply “Ill see what we can do at a meeting on Wednesday, but I’m not sure there will be much”, this call was followed by calls to churches, organizations like Umbrella, that are for crime victims, same response as the Red Cross, “Nothing we can do”.

ATF returned my call to inform me that they had NEVER received a call or a report from Officer Dan Locke, that because of this evidence is considered compromised and this means there is a chance there could be no case, or actually the evidence in the case could be thrown out to be exact. The State police called me back and said they could be of “NO help unless H.P.D requested it and sorry”.

Today, not totally discouraged,..yet,.. I continued my calls. This time the calls I placed were to the Vermont Commissioners Office, Vermont Governors Hotline, Human Services, Office Of Economic Opportunity and Vermont Emergency Management. All the replies were the same,…”I’m sorry we can’t help with that.”

About an hour before I came to the library to write this I made two more calls. I called Senator Patrick Leahy (My mother In Law emailed him and he responded with his number to call),..that was a waste of time because they “I am sorry Ma’am but we don’t help with that kind of thing but will recommend a review of criminal laws and punishment in Vermont.”

The very last call, and honestly my last hope,…Senator Bernie Sanders. I was hopeful. I was wrong to be hopeful. The gentlman that answered the phone was very short and sweet and right to the point,..”That is outside our line of duties and we can not do anything to help you.”, after a momentary pause “Sorry Ma’am”. I hung up.

No one cares about a small time family facing a terrible tragedy. It may not seem like much to anyone else but to us it was and is everything. My computer is how I make money,..my car is our only mode of transportation for the many appointments we have. I started to cry, the first time I really let myself cry.

My mother in law text me, said she was talking with Darren Perron of the channel 3 news, he was interested. After a few minutes he said he would like to know more and possibly put it on the 6 o’clock news tonight!!! Someone is listening!!

Still, no one is willing to help. I need a laptop (with wi-fi ability), new, used, a loaner, i don’t care as long as it works and I can work with it to make money, I need a windshield for my car, a new front door,…and a feeling of peace and comfort for my whole family.

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Inside Windshield (above)

I don’t know if anyone can help as I know the economy is horrid right now but I would appreciate any and all help I can get from those that CAN help. No matter what kind of help you can give me I will appreciate it. I am not able at this time to check my emails on a regular basis, (although you are welcome to email me at margodjohnson@gmail.com), I do not know when or if I will be able to get back to you that way so I am taking a risk and putting my number here. Please do not spam me, harass me, or otherwise cause undo harm to me through my phone. I am trusting everyone to be respectful to me and my family in our time of need.

My number is 802-473-2521,……

My mailing address is;

Margo Johnson

42 Carey Road

Hardwick, Vermont 05843

Paypal email…..margodjohnson@gmail.com

Again emailing me is not the best form of communication so please keep that in mind before you contact me. You may still comment here and I will do my best to get back to you as very soon as I have access to a computer and internet to do so.

I thank you all very very much for taking the time to read this. I have the best followers:)

~Holding In~

~Holding In~

This is How I feel~
“Honestly, I hold in a lot. When I’m upset, I really don’t like to tell anyone. Especially the person who made me that way. No matter how much anyone ask’s, the answer will always be “I’m Fine.” Even if it’s not true.